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Where did the time go?

Sep. 11th, 2014 | 02:07 am
mood: Wierd

Has it really been this long since I last posted? How strange to think that so much time has passed and now I find myself feeling the urge to write again.

So much has happened since 2010 and I hardly recognise myself in some aspects. I'm not sure if that is a good thing just yet. We will have to wait and see.

So in brief.

Sunny and Smiley are growing like weeds. Sunny is almost as tall as me and still a few years away from being a teenager. Smiley is slowly but surely making her way in the same direction. I'm so proud of these glorious creatures I have the privilege of calling my daughters.

Lucy (our dog) died just shy of her 14th birthday last year. Seemingly her nervous system decided to pack it's bags and leave and within two months she was gone from this mortal coil. She'd chewed through laundry doors, eaten my blinds, chomped her way through all our vain attempts to grow watermelons, stolen cat food, defended our home and stolen our hearts. Even the Vet had a tear in his eye.

We lasted 2 weeks before we cracked and got a successor. Lena is now the hell spawn cat chaser of the house. Yes I'm a sucker for punishment. Having just turned one she has successfully eaten my laundry wall, discovered the delightful hobby known as truffling for cat poo in the back garden, become my shadow and personal toilet companion. It's like Lucy left her a secret list of tasks to uphold. Titan (our old boy cat) tolerates her and Pebbles (our new girl cat) wants to assassinate her. As for Hubby, well, if she would stop peeing in submission every time he speaks to her he'd be super happy.

What else...oh my business is no more. Last year my business partner decided to betray my trust and walked out. In that moment my world imploded and I'm still reeling from the shock of it all. She has never offered up any real explanation and to this day I don't know why she did what she did with such complete disregard. After 10 years of almost sister like friendship and 8 years as business associates, I was left to sort out the mess whilst she "took care of herself". What I do know is that she lied to my face and I made the mistake of trusting face value and believing her to hold the same value and honour towards things as I did. I'm all for looking after self but not at the detriment of someone else.

If I'm honest it broke me. I had stuck through the difficult times during the property market collapse, her agoraphobia, struggled with my internal angst regarding increased responsibility as licensee and desire for a better work/life balance and always believed I was doing the right thing by hanging in there. There is a saying that the road to hell is paved by good intentions - it really is true. I've been left doubting my own judgment and my confidence has been destroyed. I'm a bit lost and feel great shame that I allowed someone to hurt me this badly. I'm struggling to find a direction. What I do know is that I must learn from this. I must find my way past it. How do you find your way past it?

Well after that Debbie downer I am signing off for now. I'd forgotten how much time slips away when you write. It's nice to be back though. x

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Goodwill to ALL men?

Dec. 30th, 2010 | 04:07 pm
mood: disappointeddisappointed

It's been a mixed bag of a christmas this year. I'm not quite sure what to make of it.

Started off very well with the usual christmas eve dinner at our place with friends and their children. Hubby cooks a ton of danish food for all to eat and it's always a good night.

Christmas day was so peaceful and happy. The girls slept in until around 9.30am which was a pleasant surprise. All the presents were opened and pancakes were made for breakfast before going off to Mon's place for a traditional christmas dinner. Again really lovely and relaxing day.

Boxing day was a bit of a drama which put a bit of a damper on the whole day. Mon and Gray had a fight and the phone was ringing off the hook. It all got sorted eventually when tempers cooled and in the end wasn't about much at all but still a bit distressing.

The next two days have been fairly uneventful and relaxing until this morning when the RSPCA knocked on the door. Apparently someone had lodged a complaint against us. Yes, you read right - against us. According to the complaint we had a malnourished german shepherd on the property. You can imagine our horror and shock at being accused of mistreating Lucy. We've had Lucy 11yrs and she's never been mistreated a day in her life and that includes the time where she ate my laundry door for fun when she was 18 months old.

Now I know Lucy is 11yrs old. Her back legs are not as strong as they used to be and she's got that old lady dog smell. This last year developed a skin complaint which means we have to wash her every week to keep her comfortable. She's going a bit deaf and short sighted but she's well loved and a bit spoiled because of her age. At her annual checkup in October she was given a clean bill of health by the same vet that has known her all her life. He even commented her weight was extremely good for a dog of her age.

Now explain to me why some evil sod would call the RSPCA and report Lucy as being malnourished? I could understand if there was a genuine issue but seriously what kind of sick person makes a false complaint at christmas?

So we immediately invited the RSPCA inspector in to look at Lucy and give us his opinion. She of course was too busy flinging her popped football around trying to seduce the new stranger into throwing it for her. It was a complete embarrassment as she danced around him in old lady dog excitement at the prospect of a new ball buddy. All he could say to us was that her nails were a bit long, took our phone number and left within about ten minutes. We even offered to get Rose out for him to look at but he didn't want to see her at all.

Now I feel odd about knowing some nasty person out there has focused on my family and tried to create upset. I'd probably feel that way no matter what time of year but it's christmas and that makes it worse in my view. This is where I hope karma kicks in and delivers them what they deserve.

So all in all a mixed bag of a time. Right now at this exact moment I'm not feeling much festive spirit or goodwill to all men.

There'd better not be any more drama this year!

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Life Lessons

Jul. 9th, 2010 | 03:59 pm

I turned fabulous 40 on 7 July and thought I'd write down a few of my life lessons so far.

1. If you want joy in your life, seek it.
2. There is a lesson to be learned in everything.
3. Separate your whites from your colours.
4. White vinager is a brilliant softner and deodoriser in your wash.
5. A little often of everything makes a difference.
6. It's not selfish to say no.
7. Anyone that would deny you the ability to say no - stay away from.
8. If it looks like bullshit, smells like bullshit, it probably is bullshit.
9. There is no space for emotional blackmail and manipulation in a healthy autonomous relationships.
10. Your baggage is no excuse for bad behaviour.
11. Any parent that speaks ill of their children should be treated with caution.
12. The more you talk about your housework, the less you are actually doing.
13. Sheep poo is the answer to every gardening issue.
14. Cadbury fruit & nut plus loud music can get you through anything.
15. A good cup of tea can make you feel better.
16. You can never tell your children enough how much you love them, no matter how old they are.
17. You can't bullshit a 4yr old.
18. Tell your kids the truth and see them as individuals.
19. The truth is not ugly.
20. Emotions are not a weakness.
21. It's okay to not like someone. You don't have to be friends with everyone.
22. You are never too old for facebook.
23. Johnson baby wipes are a housewifes best friend.
24. Take your vitamins.
25. Fresh air never hurt anyone.
26. If you do nothing else, pluck your eyebrows neatly.
27. B-grade movies are cool.
28. You can not always judge a person from what they say, you must also look at what they do.
29. If it's like beating your head against a brick wall, walk away.
30. Sometimes it's best to say nothing.
31. Finish what you start and no it doesn't all have get done in one day.
32. If the laundry is dry, put it away that evening.
33. Puppies chew, cat's spew.
34. Dead rats in the wall cavity smell for a week.
35. Don't leave plastic in the sun if you want it to stay nice.
36. Good skin is basically nutrition plus genetics and no sun.
37. Sorbolene is brilliant with skin issues.
38. Old fashioned remedies are solid.
39. Camomile kills fungus.
40. You must learn not to blindly accept another persons perception of you and know yourself for who you actually are.

Happy birthday to me and my babies, we share our days in all the same week each year.

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Effects of lack of sleep

Jul. 28th, 2009 | 03:40 pm
mood: stressedstressed

Smiley in hospital at 8.00am after waiting in emergency from 7.30pm to 5.00am to see a doctor and 2.5hrs sleep.

Me at 8.00am after waiting in emergency from 7.30pm to 5.00am with Smiley and no sleep.

I shall say no more.

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Busy bee

Jul. 9th, 2009 | 09:30 pm
mood: contentcontent

Wow it's been a busy busy couple of months.

Business has increased and end of financial year was just crazy. I count my blessings everyday that I work with such great likeminded people. We all just knuckled down and got the job done over a few late nights. There is still a fair bit to do before compliance and audit but the majority is sorted.

On the home front we've celebrated smiley's 3rd birthday, Sunny's 6th birthday and my 39th birthday all in the same week. Thrown a kiddy disco, discovered a rat died in a wall cavity, shuttled kids to and from ballet school for the holiday course, attended a really cool "Tudors" get together and generally tried to keep the household ticking over.

Laundry and housework have been a big challenge. The weather has been crappy and I'm having to dry it all inside using my washing frame, not to mention the dead rat pong in the lounge at the front of the house!

As luck would have it the rat pong is finally fading and even though it's still raining and I had to tell a client to find another agency, it looks like it is going to be a good week.

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For the hell of it

Jun. 17th, 2009 | 09:09 pm

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)
28. Will you repost this so i can fill it out for you?

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Autumn Planting

May. 13th, 2009 | 09:02 pm
mood: excitedexcited

This is a picture of the autumn veggie patch so far. Frames are up and the broccoli, cauliflower, basil, parsley, chives, tomatos, marigolds, leeks, and alyssum seedlings are in. I've also sown the seeds for the spring onions, brown onions, carrots galore, Zucchini, parsnips, swedes, coriander, snapdragons and beans. In the other patch which you can't see is last seasons eggplant, capsicums, spinach and peas.

There's alot of self seeded buttercrunch lettuce, chervil, basil, marigolds, cherry tomatos, parsley and goodness knows what else popping up. Guess I'll have to wait for them to grow a bit more before deciding on who stays and who goes.

Sunny and Smiley are delighted. They help out with snail patrol and weed plucking. It's lovely to hear them chatter about the different plants, what they will produce and how to tell when they are ready to eat. I'm so proud of them.

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Working co-op

Mar. 17th, 2009 | 09:20 pm
mood: cheerfulcheerful

It's been lovely the last two evenings. I'm determined to bring some order back to our sunburnt garden even if it's only half an hour each day.

Sunny and Smiley have been helping out with the watering and weeding whilst I try to neaten the lawn edges and garden beds.

Won't be long till it's time to plant the autumn vegetables and I'm so looking forward to trying out the new bean netting when it arrives. This year I'm going for broke and planting intensively. The plan is to have more than we need and actually try my hand at preserving. Should prove to be interesting.

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Bits and Bobs

Jan. 8th, 2009 | 11:39 pm
mood: chipperchipper

Christmas was so great and I'm so excited for this new year to unfold. I don't care what anyone else says, this is going to be a great year. I feel it in my bones.

Sunny and Smiley have discovered ABBA in a big way and my wonderful friend Mon has organised a Mamma Mia night. Sunny is so thrilled she's been counting down the sleeps with Smiley reminding her all the way that she too is attending It should be a great night. Hubby will be escaping down the pub with Mon's hubby to play pool. Poor fellas. They simply can't cope with too much estrogen in the air.

Lucy's runny tummy is finally under control. Just as well because I think Hubby was close to the edge with all the doggie mess. Shame, she simply couldn't help it. Hubby stayed strong until day 3 and then I thought he was going to crack it if there was another night of Lucy watch. She seems okay now. Boiled rice and meat for a few days methinks.

Forecast is for 41C this weekend. HOT! My lily white skin is going to frazzle. No way we are going out in that. Hubby is burnt already from painting the eves this week. We shall have to become night owls for a few days.

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trifle overload

Dec. 29th, 2008 | 09:52 pm

I'm addicted. Couldn't help myself.

It was like the beating of a drum that called to my soul. I felt myself drawn to the fridge as if there was an invisible cord pulling me closer and closer. Day old trifle. Does it to me every time. Delicious.

Now of course I am suffering from trifle overload. I'm going to swear not to do it again with absolutely no conviction whatsoever.

So I'm sitting here feeling very bloated and with my sore fingers throbbing from yesterdays dramatic candle burn.

One of our lovely swedish candle holders decided to set itself on fire and collapse in my hand when I tried to attend to it quick smart. T'was all very dramatic. Thank goodness for Germolene. Ointment of the gods. Sunny was my doctor applying the ointment very seriously and advising me to stay brave. "Just pretend I'm a doctor mummy" she said "I'm a nice doctor and you are in my office". "yes" said Smiley holding my other hand. "She won't jab you. Be brave".

It has made me think about two things. One, how strong my motherly instinct is. I managed to shield Smiley from the splashing hot candle wax and made hubby check both Smiley and Sunny were okay before coming to my aid. Not to mention pretend I was okay when all I wanted to do was faint. Two, how brave burn victims truly are. They deserve a hell of alot of respect from the rest of us. Somehow I think I won't complain too much about my trifle bloat and germolene laiden fingers.

Smiley all of 2 years old advised me "mummy you really shouldn't play with candles. Flames are not toys". "No" I said "I shall have to remember that".

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